Existential: I am glad you are still doing therapy. Have you talked to a psychiatrist? That may be helpful in your situation.

Tactical: Do you have any family or friends or house of worship kin with kids? Offer to take them out to do something fun - go to the playground, go on a hike, go rollerskating. The best part of “other people’s kids” is you can give them back once you’ve spoiled them.

Check out hedy.org and go to your local library and offer to teach kids to code. All it takes is a web browser.